Back again

Hey ya..
I'm back blogging again.
I was too busy. No time for my blog.
So, I made a new one! hehe.
Well.. The reason why I wanna blog again..
Hmm.. I think I prefer expressing what I have in mind through blogging now.
I'm sick of explaining things and problems.
It is unexplainable.
(sorry if I offend any friends that really care. You guys rock!)
But yea. It's complicated you know.
With things around you constantly changing
and
relationship with family, friends, girlfriend/boyfriend,
they don't have the same mood everyday.
It changes..
That make life challenging and interesting.

I've gone through a lot.
Relationship, conflict, grudge, misunderstanding and many more shits.
I wonder how I still manage to go through all these shit without God's help.

I didn't...

Its rotting away deep inside my heart.
God showed ways and solutions. He offered help.
He willingly and patiently guide me through.
To not go off the track.
But..
I turned Him down. I thought I was good enough.
I thought I had it all..
Patience, Love, Kindness.. etc

I thought I had..

If there's something out there.. something that will change my life completely
Something that will always remind me not to go off track.
I'd really pray hard..

I do believe that there is God, The Creator of Heaven and earth.
The Majestic One.
Yes I do..
But I never bothered about seeking Him or even talk to Him.
I couldn't be bothered with it.
It's nothing. He's always watching me. I'm safe..
I'll be fine. I'll be okay.
Guess I was wrong.


I'm only half off the track. God help me.
I do wanna get back on track. With a life that is worth living for.

Hmm.. I have no idea what I just wrote. But I'm sure I wrote that all out from my heart.

Ron HM