Kill switch, faulty

when you know you're gonna have a bad and rough day, you try all your best to make it as smooth as possible. but heck why must it go very bad when you want it good? i've lost all strength to get back up. just not today.. poo on me.. i don't give a shit. i'll sleep with it and hope this shit is gone by the time i wake up.

Why I'd Rather Be Punched In the testicles Than Call Customer Service

Simple strip that got me laughing whole day. Seriously. Read slowly. Enjoy laughing!

True? Not True?

Its funny how you get hurt by someone you love so much and still love him/her.. Don't you think so? People tell me that a couple that quarrels often won't last or they simply just not meant for each other. True and not true. One of the many cause.. I say true because sometimes most of girls expect guys to be sensitive with what they want, how they're feeling. Fail to do so leads to an argument. And after several arguments, the best conclusion, break up. Most guys aren't usually that sensitive enough. It takes time for guys to be more sensitive. But still, breaking up is never the best solution to settle things.

It's not true either that couple that often quarrel won't last. Why? We all have patience, wisdom, etc.. Have your time alone. Think for solutions. You choose to be negative, the result's gonna be bad. You choose to be positive, the result's gonna be good, obviously. In a relationship, it's not about just love, holding hands, kissing, hugging, etc.. Its about life. Learning how to be a responsible person. To have commitments. Going through hard times together. Its about perseverance, determination, motivation.. Understanding one another is an everyday thing. We can't understand a person in just one day, not a month, not a year. Nobody is the same everyday. Even in a relationship, it changes everyday. That depends on how you think. It is very important, in a relationship, to think positively. Its normal for a couple to quarrel. Sit down, talk, fix it, change for the better.

No matter what it is, hang on. We're all human and as we all know it, we're not perfect. Not even close to it.. Be positive and learn. Love is a beautiful thing, if you treat it well..

Even the strongest guy on earth cries when he's hurt.

I'm not the strongest guy on earth..

You think?

Sigh..

Confidence

Confidence.. There are many ways to build your confidence. The question is, how? You want to be confident and feel confident, but what if you're starting with little or no confidence? How do you get from Point A to Point B? True self-confidence isn't an overnight acquisition. It takes dedication to realize you are a good human being that is worthy of respect and love

You gotta recognize your insecurities. This could be anything. Colleagues, school friends, etc.. Always, always remember that no one is perfect. Even the most confident people have insecurities. At some point in any of our lives, we may feel lack of something. That is reality. Learnt that life is full of bumps down the road. Live with it.

Identify you successes. Everyone is talented at something. Gifted at what they do. So discover the things at which you're good at then focus on your talents. Express yourself! Find something you enjoy doing it. Everyone is born with talents and strengths. You can develop and excel in yours. I'm a musician. In this field(music), confidence is everything. You lose your confidence on stage, you're a dog gone..

Stick to your principles.. It might be tough, but if you don't have something you can believe in, you don't have anything. If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything. No matter what's happened in your life, you can always lay claim to the fact that from this day forward, you've followed your principles to the best of your ability. Let the past go, live your present, for the better future. Good posture, dress sharp, work out, etc.. These will help you build confidence too.

Never ever let critics take you down. Treat it as medicines you take. Bitter but it cures.

Be confident!

I Love You

=)

Grace Of My Life

I lie awake so often at night

With something to read or something to write

In the silence, my mind is free

To think of the ways, that God has blessed me

It's easy to see how He's been so kind

Any proof I might need is right here by my side

Love that is pure, so faithful and strong

You forgive me when I do you wrong

I've seen you time after time

A picture on earth of love so divine

I am amazed for how can it be

That someone like you would love someone like me..

You are the grace of my life

So tender, so undeserved

Hard to believe you're my girl

Even harder to put what I feel into words

If I need evidence, God is good

Just looking at you is enough

You are the grace of my life

For you grace my life with your love

Congrats ♥

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A day out with you =)

You passed your test! Congrats dear!

You deserved it.

Now you're gonna have to work harder coz your boyfriend's a lazy guy =p

Sort of.. Not as lazy as you are. =pppp Nah la.. Kidding. Zzz

Love ya ♥

18.08.11

Looking back

Just another day

From nothing

To everything

Least expected

Life surprises you

Hope seemed lost

Found by love

Great times

Beginning till forever

Something that is worth saying

I can't help but want to say it to you

I love you

Mono

If time can break us down

And not keep us around

I wont wait

I wont mind

Not this time

I've started up the clocks

It's time I left behind

And everything we've lost, disappears

I'm calling, I'm calling out

For answers on the long walk home

I've started up the race

It's something I cant change

before

Giving up was the easiest option.

Letting go was the best solution.

Be a lil more patient.

Be a lil wiser.

God will help you all the way.

Ask and He will give.

God is always there

Just ask..

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Falling on my knees in worship

Giving all I am to seek your face

Lord all I am is yours

My whole life

I place in your hands

God of Mercy

Humbled I bow down

In your presence at your throne

I called you answered

And you came to my rescue and I

I wanna be where you are

In my life be lifted high

In our world be lifted high

In our love be lifted high

I'm in this situation where I have to choose.. again. To make up my mind. It's really frustrating. Sigh.. I so really wish I don't have to go through this again. I know none of you understand what I'm blogging now. Who cares.. I'll just type whats in me head.

I'm lost and confused. I'm gonna be emotional this few days (weeks probably).. Just bear with me. I'll be okay soon. It's just another stupid... something stupid la... ahh~ I'm not troubled, not crazy or whateverrrr...

I ask myself this stupid question over and over.. Again??

Pres su re...

I'm so so over pressured and tired.. After my practical exam tomorrow then I'm done.. A month break after exam!!! Woo hoo.. God You're so so good... For the past few days, I was so stressed out that I nearly gave up on everything. Assignments, Portfolio, final exam and more of hell. So stressed out that I nearly cried (unbelievable.. Imagine a dinosaur crying)

I just can't wait to go back to Kuching. Can't wait to go home. Nemoooo nemoo... nemo nemo..

Probably gonna transfer back to Kuching to continue my Degree course after my final exam.

I don't wanna stay here anymore =( Shit I hate this place more and more each day.. Really..

Why? Ok first, money coz I go back whenever there's holiday and it's very tiring and expensive. Second, I miss my dog and...nemo. Third, I just feel like it? Fourth, I'm sick of the scenery here. Fifth, my Nemo needs me. Sixth, I need Nemo. Seventh, I'm too young (and cute). Eighth, I miss my bed. Ninth, Kuching is very quite and dead without me. Lastly, I miss home(family)...

So talking rubbish... I know.. Wasted like 5mins of your life reading this tak-ada-story-line-punya post...

I'm coming home...

I can't wait..

Now

I have a reason to go back..

My Saviour King

I love you, Lord. I worship You

Hope which was lost, now stands renewed.

I give my life to honour this the love of Christ, Our Saviour King.

I was weak, You gave me strength.
I was poor, You blessed me.

I was lost, You welcomed me home.

You alone are good.

You asked Your son to carry the heavy cross.

Our weight of sin.

You're my Saviour.

One Desire

My one and only desire.. is to be with You

This is my cry. My one and only desire.

All I am is devoted to You.

Take me with You.

Come to Jesus

Nothing can separate you from His love

No sin or any other thing

So turn to God don't turn away

Just run into His arms

No matter what you've done

Just look into His eyes

See the love and grace of God

Just come to Jesus

He is everything you need

Just turn to Jesus

He is everything you see

Just come to Jesus

He is everything you need

More than the air you breathe today

There's a voice calling out to you

So open up your ears and hear

There's a destiny awaits for you

So nows the time to make your move

I will run to Your arm

I will run into Your arm

A simple change

Almost a year since I left home. Almost a year living with just memories.

I remember the night I left. So clearly that every time I sit down and think about it, tears flow. Not because I left home. It's because I left everything behind. I chose to. To start a new life. To start a whole new chapter. A new journey.

Things were fine for months. Till one day, everything changed. Who cares about new life? Who wants to start a new chapter when you're half way through? New journey? Pfft! My ass.

I didn't realize I was drifting away slowly. And when I did, I was already in the arms of the evil. Marked and controlled by evil. But Wait.. It wasn't so bad after all, I thought. He brought me to wonderful places. There were chicks everywhere! Beers! Cars! Money! Fame! This is 'paradise'!

It went on for months. I got addicted to drinking, partying, fighting. I stopped going to church. I was either too lazy or too drunk to get up. I even skipped classes. Same reason for not going to church. It went on and on and on and on~

I was back in Kuching for a week school break. So relieved to be back home again.

Nobody knew evil's my 'partner'. Nobody knew what happened. I told everybody that everything's fine. I didn't even know I was so good at acting...

Things changed again when I was back home. I met up with few friends. Close friends, school friends, etc.. But this person, a very special girl. I stared at her without her knowing. I question myself, why is she so faithful? I mean, how did she manage to hold on? Why can't I be like her? And suddenly, everything started to flash back. As if the time stopped for a moment. All the things I did. All the sins I've committed, played like a film in front of me.

Disgusted and so ashame, I left. I continued acting. I was quite a master at pretending and acting. Sigh.. There I sat alone in my bedroom, thinking. From the very start. What's the purpose of life? Is there really God? If yes, why aren't you here for me? I'm beginning to doubt. Maybe there is no purpose of living in this world. Everything's the same. Eat, sleep, work, play, die...

A week gone and I was back at 'paradise' again. I acted normal as if nothing happened. I partied, drunk... but less. I was beginning to realize. I was slowing down on everything bad. The girls, parties, beers... Every time temptations tried to deceive me, I thought of her. Simple but effective. This went on for months and eventually I stopped. I slipped off the evil's arms.

I thank God for being so merciful. I'm so blessed to know friend who is so faithful to God. You don't know, you don't have to do anything but your doings are enough to change a person's life. God works in many ways. We cannot see. Just trust and have faith. And He will guide you through.

Through Him, nothing is impossible. Through Him, everything is possible.

God Bless.

ps, i summarized lots of it. So, if you dont understand a thing, ask me. =)

I dont really like writing this long. But ah well.

'Nothing last forever', 'Good things come when you wait'

True and not true. Well, somethings are meant for you and somethings arent. Either you accept it or feed yourself to the crocs.

True that nothing last forever and good things come when you wait; Tell me, what last forever? Love? Commitment? Marriage? etc.. Ok maybe I am wrong about the marriage. But most of everything don't last.

Some not so true. Yea the marriage thing. Some made it, some didn't.

Good things come when you wait? Sometimes you question yourself, "How long do I need to wait?", "Is it worth waiting?". Lets just put it this way. God has a better plan for you, He memang sengaja la make you wait. Isn't patience(long suffering) one of the Fruits of the Holy Spirit? So be patient la. Ya I can do that. I can be very patient. The question is, how long? 1week? 3months? 5years? I'm not gonna share my experience here. Wanna know? Ask me in private(i charge by minute).

When you're fed up of waiting, what are you gonna do?

a) Bash the wall, throw your cat into the sea, quarrel with your pet dog. (Anger, Disappoint, Emotional)

b) Kneel, breathe in, scream till neighbours move out. (Helpless, Hopeless)

c) "ah, maybe I don't deserve it, maybe I'm too bla bla bla....." (Excuses, Avoiding)

d) Pray (Faith, Trust, Wisdom)

I don't do the (a) definitely not the (b). Yes, (c) is so me. Giving excuses, avoiding, (like not interested to know the truth, or more like...... scared?). Shamefully (d) is the last thing I'd do. Sad..

But now I know..

God works in many ways, it's up to you to trust Him.

Well, I believe in Him. And, I believe good things WILL come when you wait patiently and I'm sure my patience will last forever. Nothing is impossible, rightttttt??? Impossible is nothing. Through Him, Im will live Possible alone(lame, i know)....

To be honest.. I dont know whats the purpose of posting this.. ah well.. God bless all

Whatever you do.

Take your time.

Be wise in making decisions.

Know God is always watching you.

Was I too close for comfort?

I guess I'll never know

One last cry

Before I leave it all behind.

I gotta put you out of my mind this time.

Stop living a lie.

I guess I'm down to my last cry.

Sigh.

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Hear us, Lord.

Lord, hear our cry

Come heal our land

Breathe life into these dry and thirsty souls

Lord, hear our prayer

Forgive our sins

And as we call on Your name

Would You make this a place

For Your glory to dwell

Lord hear our song

Your children worship

Open the blind eyes

Unlock the deaf ears

Come to Your people

As we draw near

Hear us from heaven

Touch our generation

We are Your people

Crying out in desperation

Hear Us From Heaven

Jokessss

Laughed my head off.. Thanks to my cousin.

It's about Malaysia's politicians.

I somehow find all these jokes about them are true!

Here are the best Malaysian Politician jokes. The Top six

If you havent already read these jokes, enjoy.

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1.

Pak Lah, Najib and Samy V were patrolling in a helicopter

Samy:'if I drop a thousand-note from here, the person that picks it up must be very happy'
Najib:'if I throw 2 five hundred-notes down, it will make 2 person happy'
Pak Lah:'if I drop 10 one hundred-note, there will be 10 happy person'
The pilot murmuring to himself:'why don't all of you just jump down from
here, that makes 26 million persons happy'

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2.
Samy V wish to enhance his reputation by publishing 1 series of stamps with his portraits.
1 month after the launch, Samy surveys about its sales.

Post Office Chief: 'not bad… but quite number of complains that the glue is not strong enough'
Samy: 'really…?' he spit at the back of the stamp and stick the stamp on
an envelope 'the glue is ok'
Post Office Chief: 'but… every one spits on the face of the stamp ….'

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3.
Midnight, Najib went for supper and bump into a robber: 'give me all your
money!!'
Najib was very angry: 'I am the honorable Deputy Prime Minister! Better
behave yourself'
Robber: ' well, then … return all my money'

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4.

One fine day, PM and parliament members were on the way to a meeting

where they all crashed into an accident and being rushed to the hospital.

The reporters were at the hospital, the doctor shook his head 'we have

done our best to rescue the PM but …'

Reporters: 'how about Najib?'

Doctor: 'we were unable to rescue him either …'

Reporters: 'who have you saved?'

The doctor was exicted: 'Malaysia is saved (has a hope) now'

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5.
Samy V visited the psychiatric hospital. All the patients hurray for him
but there is one patient who ignored Samy

Samy:'why is he not welcoming my arrival?'
'he is normal (not insane) today' say the doctor

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6.

Samy V had an accident when he was on his way to a village for election
campaign. A farmer saw and rushed to the scene but all the passengers were dead. He
buried all the passengers (politicians).
Few days later, the police in charge found the farmer and asked where all
the politicians were, 'have they all died?'

Farmer: hmmm, Samy was screaming that he is still alive when I buried him….'
Police: why you buried him anyway?'
Farmer: 'because Samy never tells the truth.

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Very mean jokes.. But very true. Politicians will always be politician.

Politics? Heh...

O Holy Night

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Sylvester and Ghubbie

24th December 2010.

24th December 2010.

Alvin, Mervyn, Me, Sylvester

24th December 2010.

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Photographed and Edited by me!=p

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Village Groove, 6th floor

Sylvester, The Spring

24th December 2010

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The Spring, Ground Floor

24th December 2010

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Mini Bicycle

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Walk In The Sun

I wonder what it's like to be loved by you

I wonder what it's like to be home

And I don't walk when there's stone in my shoe

All I know, that in time I'll be fine

I wonder what it's like to fly so high

Or to breathe under the sea

I wonder if someday I'll be good with goodbyes

But I'll be okay if you come along with me

I wonder how they put a man on the moon

I wonder what it's like up there

I wonder if you'll ever sing this tune

All I know is the answers in the air

Such a long, long way to go

Where I'm going I don't know

I'm just following the road

For a walk in the sun.

To Miss-You-Know-Who

I'm so sick of people spreading rumours about me.

I'm so sick of perfect people. Sick of smelling their sh!ts..

Let me tell ya..

1. I never ran away from home!

2. I am a scholarship student!

3. I do not drain money out from any of my friends!

4. I am not a gangster.

5. Yes, I am naughty but I know my limit.

6. Yes, I am a very hot tempered person.

7. I am wise.

8. I love God and I fear Him!

9. Dang assholes, stop denying what you did and stop spreading rumours about me!

10. GROW UP!!

Sadly, this lady is a church member. I'm beginning to think that churches are not for sinners but for perfect people.. Spotless~

I am not gossiping~

I just feel that, it's time for the "not-so-spot-less" people to know who you really are. (I doubt they don't know you la)

Eh come on la. I never kacau-ed you ok. I don't know why you hate me so much (I don't really care) and why you lurrvvveee telling people that I ran away from home. Whaaat? My house got war kah?

Though I'm not that close with my family but I care for my family. Don't believe? Try kacau la..

You see.. I can't be like what you want me to be. I am not your son and I will never be. So understand sikit la.

I know you have a great family. Your son, phewwitt... A very successful man. You have a very sweet daughter. You have a happy family. Thank God for that. Great isn't it? A blessing to have such a great family. So.. that means you can go around telling people how bad or broken that family is? Just because you have a great family? Spreading rumours? Condemn? Avoid?

Do you know who you are?

You are:

1. A very busybody person.

2 . And you love to complain...

3. You never think of others.

4. Because you are selfish.

5. You love to tell lie.

6. Especially when you gossip.

7. You become so innocent when people confront you.

8. Yea.. Keep denying.. Defend yourself..

9. You're too perfect.

10. So why attend church? I thought churches are for sinners?

If I really did ran away from home

Why didn't you help?

Why avoid instead of helping? Why spread the news instead of praying for me?

When I asked you, you denied and you blamed me! You were preaching!

1. You denied

2. You said I snapped at you and I showed no respect!

3. You said I did things behind your back!

4. You said I was trying to get the youths to go against you!

5. You said "I hope you are mature enough now to think for yourself the things you had done to CAUSE OTHERS MUCH GRIEF AND SORROW! (oh look who's talking)

6. You said I am UNGRATEFUL

7. (I love this part) - You said "You are an ungrateful person, so you can stop the bad rumours or twisted stories around to gain your own popularity but unpopularity. I feel sorry for you only!"

First of all, you DENIED everything. Second, I was talking and you just budged in. So who showed no respect? I snapped at you because you showed no respect! Simple~

Third, I did things behind your back? Do I need the permission from YOU to do MY things with MY friends? Plus, I was ASKED to help... You should thank me instead of blaming me. Fourth, I don't have to. They never liked you. Fifth, I asked if we could meet up and talk, you ran away and gave tons of excuses. Lastly, were you describing yourself? That you spread bad rumours or twisted stories around to gain your own popularity but unpopularity? You felt sorry for yourself? Gosh. That is PATHETIC!!

Stop poo-ing around. Stop it. Seriously..

So my friends, stay away from me coz I'll drain all your money out and I'll try to get you to go against your family. I ran away from home because I am a troublemaker.

Whatever lah..

So Miss-You-Know-Who, GROW UP!!! Stop denying. People can see la..